I Battle Depression And Anxiety

New Doctor

I was recently referred by counselor to a psychiatrist, since my normal Dr has issues medicating anxiety and depression meds. I have been fighting anxiety attacks for years. When I finally reach out for help I get slammed in the face with are you here to abuse the medication or we cant trust you with the medication that can help you when the attacks hit. This is the treatment I expected in the past so I was never honest with other doctors about my past addictions. Addictions I have overcome and not had too many issues with for 10 years. I blame myself honestly. I should have known that once my doctor saw the questionnaire stating yes I had been an addict she would treat me different. I could understand if it was meth I was asking to be handed. I took it to keep in control and not sleep while under the roof of an abusive sick monster who l liked to sneak up on little girls in their sleep. Said monster is gone and I haven't touched the stuff in over 10 yrs. But that doesn't matter to a naive doctor who thinks the world is full of pill poppers just looking for their next hit. So here is hoping this psychiatrist is willing to look at me present not my past and help me with the attacks and the depression. I would love to be able to function outside of my home without being plagued by anxiety. (end rant)

Source: http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Battle-Depression-And-Anxiety/3703738